subtle resistance to reality

In Rupert Spira's interview on www.batgap.com, he talks about not only investigating the nature of separation (from god, or all that is or the divine or whatever) using thoughts and words, but investigating the nature of separation through feelings. I liked that idea.

I take it to mean examining how one feels about whatever one is doing. As in, "It's freaking cold outside! Ick!" or "Eeesh, I'm driving to work at my job that I don't like." Or it could be a much more subtle feeling of mild annoyance or worry or loneliness. “Darn, I forgot to brush my teeth and now I have to get out of bed again and I’m tired”

Any of these, of course, are a form of resistance to what is. Most of us (me for sure) are doing this often if not constantly. It’s not that we should try NOT to have these feelings. They arise as they will. Rejecting them or pretending that they’re not real is just another form of resistance to what is; another form of denial or separation.

I think what he’s driving at is just being aware of these feelings as they arise which of course requires quite a bit of focus and attention. The only work required is being aware and then examining them, looking at them fully to discover the underlying truth. “Yeah, it IS cold outside. It does that this time of year. It is what is occurring. I’m having a problem with reality why?” Not answering necessarily, just observing then maybe doing some quiet breathing and see what arises. Fun. Treasure! I’m recommitting to that today.

Here's a recent photo of my 'growth' btw. I've not posted one lately because I don't want to scare anyone, but that seems like denying reality or helping others deny reality. I'm doing a lot of work on it to make it get smaller and go away, some science based and some energetic. I'm also going to go see radiation doc on the 12th to see if I want to do some more radiation to shrink the thing some. Today it is not feeling very annoyed at all. No pain, not pushing, not angry, so that's all good.

I stated on my fb page that although it looks dramatically 'bad', I'd like people to see and hold the positive outcome and the healing as there's enough energy floating around that it I'm a short timer or some such vibe. So, help me out by seeing it healed. Thank you, loves. Peace be with you all today.