Thursday, May 24, 2012

Pololu Valley Rainbow

At the end of the day we drove to Pololu lookout and saw this lovely rainbow.
Last shot of the series. Heading back above the mountain road toward Waimea before dropping off to the dry side of the island to land back at Hapuna. Old cinder cone in the photo.
NE Coastline, Big Island, Valleys and Waterfalls.

Waipio Valley, Big Island Hawaii, Helicopter

Leaving the east coast of Hawaii, we start approaching the Waipio and other valleys along the NE Coast of the Big Island. There are a bunch of corrogations up here, five or more super deep valleys that are virtually impassible. Waipio has some native old family (Kamaina) inhabitants/farmers living a homesteading life, growing Taro and other food. All photos by Pamela Huggins.

Hilo and the Hamakua Coast of Hawaii

All of these pictures, by the way, were taken by Pamela Huggins on a cheap Kodak EasyShare set at low res (my fault) through the acrylic bubble of the helicopter. And BTW, use Sunshine Helicopter on the Big Island. They are great and our pilot Grant was not only awesome but the ladies thought he was hot. :-)
In this final shot of Pu'u O'o crater, you can see the crater (the entire round surface is a lake of lava covered by a thin crust), the hole in the 'ice' that spits out lava while you watch and the expanse of the underground lava tube leading toward the coast.

Hawaii Big Island Helicopter Tour

Helicopter Pix of Pu'u O'o crater near Volcano, HI. The crater is the active lake of lava that sometimes spills over the top of the crater and heads toward the sea (Makai). Currently the lava is mostly running under the ground in a lava tube. You can see the smoke rising from the tube heading toward the sea, but the lava is running inside. This stretches for many miles. Don't know how many.

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

And then there's this. Being prepared at any time to leave the body thing behind with all that entails (sometimes fear of what comes after (the unknown), sometimes fear of how the process might occur, some kind of weird longing for the events I might miss as an embodied being) and at the same time, knowing positively that this can be healed NOW (maybe will be, maybe not and it's not up to me) and that my direct and powerful participation is required for that to happen.
Let me try this on. I'm talking to myself here so don't take it as anything more than that, k? Any of us could die before the hour hand completes another circuit of the clock face. It's not about dying well. Die kicking and screaming if that seems appropriate. It's about how I show up for the LIFE part. "Carpe F'ing Vitae!" as Jed M. would say. Living fully in every moment, not just fully in the mind and body, but also in the being that temporarily INHABITS the mind and body. This is not something to try to remember or a goal because it is not something that the mind can achieve or even strive for. The mind CAN be used as a candle to dimly illuminate THIS, but neither the candle nor its light IS THIS. So how does it occur then? Intention is helpful, but much more than that is required. Hmmm. I'm doing it in this moment (or more accurately expressed, it is occurring, since it ain't me doing it). How did I get here?

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Life, my attitude and Kanaloa

Working to not only maintain some sort of normal life, dishes, cooking, laundry etc after a major medical event, putting those pieces back into place, but also to be attuned, to not only listen but ask, "Should I do this, that, lay down, do some work?" At the same time observing the attitude with which I navigate the moments. Am I in resistance to this event? How does pain affect that attitude? The growth on my neck looks increasingly bizarre and I'm sure even more gruesome to many people. I don't want to freak out the general public. It even smells bad, probably negatively affects the romantic side of our relationship. And through all that it IS! It just is what it is. Very real. Sometimes I avoid looking at it for days in a row, but that's just avoidance. I've been wearing a hand towel folded in thirds long ways around my neck held in place by a cut off yoga belt. I'm sure that looks interesting. Maybe I need to get a cervical collar so it looks more normal. Mostly my attitude is good, I'm almost always happy, but sometimes the snark creeps in. Just trying to deal with reality. Went to the rocky ocean front last night in the dark in the wind. Kanaloa, ocean god said, "Yeah, I have the power to blow you and your truck right off this rock into the ocean and You/I have the power to heal that thing on your neck too. Continue your work, not prove your worthiness, but go deeper than you've imagined you can, further than anyplace you thought could exist. Keep going." What do I say to that, right? OK then, ok.

Thursday, May 10, 2012

There comes a time when we realize that we are the ocean, the singularity and that the singularity is omnipotent. This is not faith or understanding or knowledge, it is not mind stuff, it is instead knowing. Then the choice becomes are we (am I) going to live that knowing, accept that much power, or are we (am I) going to continue to choose to identify with the little me, controlled and buffeted by some imaginary deity that we imagine is separate from ourselves?
I realized at some point that all of the mind's many questions about consciousness were no more than it's desire to be considered important and did nothing except inhibit truth.
‎"Have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves... Don't search for answers now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. You will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer." -Rainer Maria Rilke. Shared from Deva Premal.
Another Pololu Valley photo.