And then there's this. Being prepared at any time to leave the body thing behind with all that entails (sometimes fear of what comes after (the unknown), sometimes fear of how the process might occur, some kind of weird longing for the events I might miss as an embodied being) and at the same time, knowing positively that this can be healed NOW (maybe will be, maybe not and it's not up to me) and that my direct and powerful participation is required for that to happen.