It's obvious that we've reached a critical moment

The Main tumor is big enough that it's going to have to either stop growing or start getting smaller if I'm going to last another year or more. Thats just the way it is. Little bit of pain now but sooner or later it's going to impact some critical function, whether swallowing or blood flow or spine or nervous system. Time for a change here. I feel a seismic shift in how I hold it emotionally. Will that be enough? We will find out.I'm working it as best I can with all that I am and have become.